Bittersweet moments

Good news and bad news....

The good news is all is going well with the pregnancy for the most part! I am 14 weeks +2 days and really starting to pop! Went for my appt the other day and found out i actually LOST 5 lbs---funny, i thought i gained it! Dr. Cortese said not to worry, have plenty of months to gain the weight! yay! The heartbeat was very strong, heard it on the Doppler. Will be getting an ultrasound at 20 weeks--cannot wait--hoping baby will cooperate so we can find out the sex! I predict boy, Jason says girl! I have been having some breathing problems with my asthma, been to the allergist and he told me I wasn't breathing at full capacity (that explains why i run out of breath from the car to the house!). I am at 80% and should be at 90-100%---does he mean my pulse ox??? So despite my "i am not taking ANY drugs during this pregnancy thing"--well that went out the window, on Pulmicort at night, dammit! But like the doc says, if I am not breathing, baby is not breathing...other than that, all day nausea stopped around 8 1/2 weeks--but i still bring up a meal every once in awhile---the gagging takes over and there is no stopping it! yuk! I am still a little tired--when is that energy supposed to kick in??

On another note, the bad note...my dad was just recently diagnosed with Lung cancer. The prognosis is not good, at first they were giving him 6mo-1 year with treatment and now in a month's time, he has gone downhill. We reconciled last month after not speaking for a year and I am so thankful for that. My family and I are really devastated over this news. He could have weeks to maybe months left and it is just a lot to take in. My Nana is devastated, my dad is her only son and she feels that she is just living too long. I am just asking for prayers from all of you!
I was up to visit with him yesterday and also got to spend some quality time with my sisters which was great. When sitting with my dad, he held my hand and said, "Take really good care of that baby....I love you, I have always loved you, I just want you to know that." It was all I needed to hear, although we had some differences, I never stopped loving him either. My dad was never one to talk about emotions or even show emotion, now at this stage in his life, he is very emotional and telling us all he wants us to know, which I am so thankful for. I am also thankful he had so many kids so we can all be there for one another through this time. My dad's birthday is Sept 18th--really hoping he can make his birthday so we can all spend that quality time with him. He said he is really going to try.

Just asking for prayers for our family! Cancer is such a shitty disease, as many of you know who have lost close family member and friends...why is it taking so long to find a cure?