Trying to stay positive

Alright, so Jason and I went to the doc tonight for my ultrasound after taking the Clomid for 5 days (days 3-7 of my cycle). Maybe I shouldn't have gotten myself all psyched up like i did...The doctor found that my follicles are not as big as they would have liked them to be at this stage in the game(day 12 of the cycle). So.....i have to go in for another ultrasound on Saturday morning (yes, a doctors office that has SATURDAY appointments!) to see if they have gotten any bigger. He says they are like at 9 (cm? does that sound right?) and they need to be at like 14-20. So, needless to say i was pretty disappointed. When the doc and tech left the room, I fell apart. Jason was of course being encouraging hubby that he is saying all the right things, but it is hard for me to stay positive when i want a baby this bad. The doctor said that if this month it doesn't happen, they will have to increase the Clomid (took 50 mg) and since it tends to take me 60 days to get a period, they will give me Provera, do more blood testing and blah blah blah and then start the cycle of Clomid all over again when i begin my next cycle (i apologize for the run on sentence!) I am now realizing that it is going to be harder than I anticipated, thinking, oh well, i just take this little fertility drug and then boom, im pregnant---but then reality strikes. OK, I know i am being hard on myself and i have to stop, it's just sad for me. I know we have only been trying to get pregnant since January but now its just getting frustrating. I know they also say, when you aren't trying---that's when it happens! Well, how the hell do you pretend NOT to try?? So all who are reading this, please pray for large follicles on Saturday so we can get pregnant soon :) Looking forward to being a mommy---I feel like one already to my students, just look forward to having a child of our own! I see the twinkle in Jason's eyes when he sees a little one and I just can't wait to give him a family.

Oh and by the way, I started walking with my awesome neighbor, walked 2 miles last night and plan to do it again tomorrow. I am also eating a little better! Excited for the March for Babies walk on Sunday---5 miles, gotta get these ovaries in shape! ha! :) Just a bunch of randomness....

Does anyone have any success stories of people they know of who have been on Clomid? Please share!!! :) Thanks for reading!