clouded

I cant really think...supposed to write a paper for tomorrow nights class...but im clouded by so many thoughts...i just want to sleep and wake up to the smell of the fresh spring air. Think i am going to write the prof and tell her my paper will be late, dont usually like to do that...but i need to for my sanity...Jason had flowers sent to the apt yesterday for me, it was very sweet. He sent them for a "pick me up"....dont know how i am going to go about this whole "cutting my dad out of my life" thing. I was never one to give up on family, but hey, they gave up on me. I am tired of being shit on....a person can only take so much before they snap. Im tired of being that person who is always so forgiving....im going to bed soon....just wanted to type a blurb....guess i should write the prof before bed.,....uhhhhh so much to fucking do....