Getting there...

An update...So today we went to the doc for the second ultrasound after taking the Clomid 50mg. On Tuesday the largest egg follicle was 9mm and now I have one that is at 14mm....The doc does not think that we will get pregnant this month, bummer! But we can continue to have "relations" as they like to call it, (haha) starting every other day next week---in hopes that there will finally be a mature egg that would like to get fertilized from a happy little swimmer---ahhh down to such a science! The doctor said that we will increase the Clomid next month, since my ovaries didn't respond well to 50mg. I think they will increase it one more time after the first increase and then we start talking insemination (IUI)....but HOPEFULLY we don't have to get to that point...Did i MENTION how thankful I am that my insurance covers all of this---AND for IVF if God forbid, we get that far...I pay a lot for my PPO--but dammit, its worth it :)

I have had many great suggestions and comments on my last blog (thank you to all who wrote in, I appreciate your kind words and thoughts). I think if it doesn't happen in the next month or so, we are just going to have to take a break and see if nature can takes its course without all the pressure. I know the body does some crazy things when under stress...My friend Heather says, we should just enjoy the baby dancing---great advice!

As for the exercise, I have walked 4 days this week (2 miles each time) and J and I plan to continue to do so when i get home from work each day. I have been watching what I eat a little more and have started taking the extra folic acid along side my prenatal pill. I know it is going to take work, but I am willing to do this in order to become a mother.

I have to admit, at first I wasn't sure about putting all of our business out there, but then I realized (from all the private messages and comments I received) that it can also help others---awareness is key! Sometimes there are people going through the same thing as I found out. Now I know I am doing the right thing. We are in this together.

Thanks again for reading and I hope the next blog update will be a SUPER positive one! :)

Trying to stay positive

Alright, so Jason and I went to the doc tonight for my ultrasound after taking the Clomid for 5 days (days 3-7 of my cycle). Maybe I shouldn't have gotten myself all psyched up like i did...The doctor found that my follicles are not as big as they would have liked them to be at this stage in the game(day 12 of the cycle). So.....i have to go in for another ultrasound on Saturday morning (yes, a doctors office that has SATURDAY appointments!) to see if they have gotten any bigger. He says they are like at 9 (cm? does that sound right?) and they need to be at like 14-20. So, needless to say i was pretty disappointed. When the doc and tech left the room, I fell apart. Jason was of course being encouraging hubby that he is saying all the right things, but it is hard for me to stay positive when i want a baby this bad. The doctor said that if this month it doesn't happen, they will have to increase the Clomid (took 50 mg) and since it tends to take me 60 days to get a period, they will give me Provera, do more blood testing and blah blah blah and then start the cycle of Clomid all over again when i begin my next cycle (i apologize for the run on sentence!) I am now realizing that it is going to be harder than I anticipated, thinking, oh well, i just take this little fertility drug and then boom, im pregnant---but then reality strikes. OK, I know i am being hard on myself and i have to stop, it's just sad for me. I know we have only been trying to get pregnant since January but now its just getting frustrating. I know they also say, when you aren't trying---that's when it happens! Well, how the hell do you pretend NOT to try?? So all who are reading this, please pray for large follicles on Saturday so we can get pregnant soon :) Looking forward to being a mommy---I feel like one already to my students, just look forward to having a child of our own! I see the twinkle in Jason's eyes when he sees a little one and I just can't wait to give him a family.

Oh and by the way, I started walking with my awesome neighbor, walked 2 miles last night and plan to do it again tomorrow. I am also eating a little better! Excited for the March for Babies walk on Sunday---5 miles, gotta get these ovaries in shape! ha! :) Just a bunch of randomness....

Does anyone have any success stories of people they know of who have been on Clomid? Please share!!! :) Thanks for reading!

Update

Alright...so the update on the baby situation. Well, after 63 days of waiting for the big P, i finally got it! I was getting kinda irritated with taking pregnancy tests and getting negative results, but I am glad i can start a new month with hopefully BETTER results! I started taking the Clomid today (supposed to take it days 3-7 of my cycle). I have to make an appt with the doc for an ultrasound on day 12 to check out the follicles. I have to admit, I was a little hesitant to take the Clomid because it can cause multiple births. Jason and I are cool with twins---but triplets might be a bit difficult. I have back issues so I don't even think my body could hold triplets---I guess we will see what happens and let nature take her course. No matter what, we will be happy with what God gives us!